Life has meaning. We all know this. What we find difficulty in, is finding this very meaning. Every person strives to look for this meaning. Each tries in his most conceivable way how to find it, but only few are successful in this undertaking.
I have been searching this meaning way back in adolescent stage, but until now I still have not reach the depth of what I have been searching for. My efforts would seem pointless, yet it is in trying that I found the greatest challenge and is keeping me moving on. I do not know where does my search will end. All I know is my search is the very meaning of my life.
A friend once tagged me as lousy, boring and overacting while he browsed my journal, quoted my phrases from there on how to live my life the best way I thought possible. Anything that we're not interested in is boring and lousy. What we forget is the fact that we are different, everyone of us. We are unique in our own way. One thing might be interesting to some while to some it is not.
For awhile I thought that friend of mine was right. But then, would I surrender to his suggestion when what interests him does not interest me? So I went my own way. I continued to be boring rather than doing nothing at all with my life and letting some of the ponderings of my mind pass me by. My life would not be worth living then if I live it according to other's wishes.
Many writers, authors and mentors have unlimited wisdom regarding the meaning of life. Yet, however great their words are, life's meaning still eludes the restless seeker; for life's meaning is not something to look for rather it's something to live for. It is not the achievement. It is the path to achievement. It is not what we do. It is how we do it. The most beautiful thing is, whatever we do if anybody learn from it and is inspired by it, then and only then our life would have its meaning.
It does not also mean that we do not need the wisdom of the gurus. We need them, very, very much need them. For the counsel of the wise is better than following our own fragile understanding. We need guides who had trod the lonely path that we are about to trod; those guides who learned every step of the way. But it does not mean we should lay our life to our chosen guides. We still need to be responsible for ourselves and stand for every decision that we make. And whenever we fail, we fail not for life's plan of failing us, but for life's purpose of teaching us.
We will just have to remember: it is in trying times that we bump into life the biggest, thereby unintentionally finding the worthless from the worthwile. From here slowly our life would reveal its meaning.
